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31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

fuck it.

i’m eating way too much lately.

I need to stop.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

Food is for people who have no will power.

Come on, Kourtnee. You can do this.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

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31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I didn’t think this through. No one was here to notice when you were gone.
Now you’re here to notice, but you don’t care.

But if you do notice, it’ll be enough to start lying.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

Skinny, but not skinny enough.

Not at all skinny enough.
You could always be thinner.
I wont rest until I am.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I guess you could say that I started this because no one cares so I just tried to see what I could get away with.

Every day I drilled more into my head to the point of where I actually wanted to do this to myself.

Now here I am. Daring to see my weight. Crossing my fingers to see that I’m underweight. Here. Goes. Nothing.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I think I’m just doing this so that you don’t suspect anything.

Earlier today you said that you felt like you had to force feed me to get me to eat. I don’t want you to know.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I don’t think I’ll ever be completely comfortable in my own skin

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

The good thing about having him is that he’ll lie about food with me.

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I’m falling into old habits without you here

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

I’m trying so hard to save them when I can’t even save myself

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin

no one cares, and no one should

31 Mar • ∞
Dying to be thin
"You look like a twig! What is wrong with you? You look like you’re 10 pounds! What, did you quit eating?"

- Dad

31 Mar • ∞
fuck It's getting noticeable Dying to be thin

Back into my old routine We’ve only talked for three days and you’ve already got me fucked up. Suicide jokes and one meal a day I don’t think things are going to get better anytime soon

31 Mar • ∞
you Dying to be thin